kellykirstein:

I was thinking about Blue Pearl recently. These shots are from @sirvalentinopine on Instagram at Metrocon 2017, the only time I wore Blue Pearl.

When I first debuted her, it was my first time trying this method of paint and I still felt rather fresh to the SU community. When I posted photos, people were so incredibly kind and loving – except one. One person felt the need to tell me I was ‘too big’ to cosplay a Pearl.

And that was enough for me to never want to post her again.

I felt so insecure, being a woman at 5’9" I have always been told that I am “too tall” or that my appearance is “manly” because of it. Kids taunted me growing up and I always felt the need to shrink my size, bending in photos with friends to look as delicate as they did. Responding to comments in awe over my height to this day make me uncomfortable, even if they are not coming from a place of negativity.

I was thinking about how over a year later, this one dumb comment still haunts me. How I am to this day unsure if I ever want to pick up this cosplay. How one comment sticks in my brain despite the hundreds of kind ones. They probably don’t even remember making it.

We all have something we are insecure about, but cosplay is for each and every one of us. Don’t let that one jerk comment bring you down. You’re wonderful and you deserve to feel such no matter what gorgeous, unique, one of a kind shape or size your manifestation of light took.

You’re beautiful and so am I.